Random Musings about "Ifs"

I feel happy that few people have started calling me and have suggested that I should write and write more. They were literally head over heels about whatever I write and think. Ok I made up the last line, but honestly it feels good and special. “Taking Bows”. Thank you, such compliments mean a lot. It makes me believe in myself more and for better!

This post is something I have been thinking ever since I encountered a question while writing answer to Strategic Thinking paper in college. Yeah, sometimes, it’s strange, the mechanics of our mind. The question was “IF” tit for tat strategy will work in a relationship. As prof VNB would have said love changes the payoff matrix. 

Today, I am writing some random stuff springing in my mind.

I was reading from my chart which hangs just above my bed. It is a poem from Rudyard Kipling “If”. Two lines from the poem strike me.

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;

If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;

I realized, if is a big word and I think of ifs in my life.

If only, I can assert more and say that you can trust me and “Mai Hoon na”, but alas I have thing to let people make up their own god damn minds. Even though, every ounce of my flesh screams “Trust me”.

If only, I can run that one extra mile a day to get that high which come from burning pain in my legs.

If only, I can write more and be proud of it. If only, I can tell my friends more often, that shit happens and move on!

If only, I can sleep for 10 more minutes even after I snooze my alarm 10 times. If only, I can clean my room and get organized.

If only, I can hold that hand and look into those eyes and say things which matter the most. If only, I can be.

If only, I can spend time with friends with whom I have lost touch! If only, I can sing and play songs which are running in my mind all the time.

If only, I don’t have to ever think of ifs.

If only, I can sleep on time!

Peace out!